I want to fall in love, but not yet.
Never can find the right one, every time I hear that I deserve every great thing I get.
It maybe for the best that I’ve been going solo for this long.
Always questioning if I’m a good person or reminding myself that I belong.
If I deserve a love like those think I deserve, that person deserves my best and nothing less.
Been a part of so much drama, so many intrusive thoughts at times – some occasions I just call trauma.
I could blame myself and claim that I’m not good enough.
But what good is that? Besides I must stay true to my emotions – should never be ashamed of vulnerability and must never ever in weakness, pretend to be tough.
I may not know much about love nor be what some look for.
I’m still learning my worth, and honestly there’s lots more to learn – there’s absolutely no way I’ve heard or seen it all before.
No hard feelings, it’s all in the past- not tomorrow.
So why prevent my growth just to live miserably in sorrow?
I can’t be everyone’s cup of tea.
I know someone’s out there, and I know the time will come sooner or later for me.